"You know I miss you. You know I ♥ u,still. You know I hate those big fuss. You know I've always tried my best to be with you despite the impossibilities. You know I've been trying hard to make you happy. You know I always give you chances. YOU KNEW EVERYTHING ! but why ? WHY must it end this way ? try put urself in my shoe. TRY ! trust me, you won't feel good & u'll nver, i really mean NEVER, like how life has been treating you all this while. What goes around comes around, its time 2 wake up."

Well, thats my current facebook status. I'm doing this on purpose as I want him, MUHAMMAD KHIDIR to realise that he's been taking me, my love and almost everything for granted ! What is all this shit ? Why can't life just be simple and upmost FAIR to me ? Why ? Miserymiserymisery. Has mostly been that. I'm tired. Seriously v tired. May not be physically but obviously, mentally.

All I feel like doing now is just SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAM ! How strong my outlook may be, the weakness in me, no one would ever seen it or know it. People who cares, stop thinking or asking whether i'm okeh or not. I'm doing fine(: I know very well how to cope with my life, my MISERY, just my Ups & Downs. & if I were to need help, I would definitely need someone to talk to, someone who cares to be by my side, just a good listener to hear my stories. Anyway, Thanks for your care and concerns yeaa.

But still, *BIG TIME SIGHS* Why must it F-ing turn out this way ? Thinking back, what abang said was true. "Things never always happen the way we expect. We are just humans."

So, at one point, always expect the unexpected. Lastly, I wanna share my msn personal message too.

"One moment, you're like a gold. Another moment, you're like a goddamn SHIT who didn't realise your true colours. Oh My !"

Rebecca, Neo, Abang & not forgetting OTAKOTAK, wher are you ? :'(