onlystubborngrl

I need you like a parasite needs a host, I need you like a heart needs a beat, I need you like this space needs a description.
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"The trouble with her is that she lacks the power of conversation but not the power of speech."
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Sunday, February 7, 2010 , 6:04 AM



An old friend found. Y*** J** is now Beybey Cine. Haah ! Wat a small world. Started to get to know each other but in the end found out that we're primary school mates. L O L.

Aside from that, between those days I didn't update my blog, much things happened. Well, eventhough things has already happened, I'm still least satisfied with this two person. Shall not specifically mention their names out coz readers might be shock as who would ever believe they did this to me. Sigh. Things may not happen as planned but still, I don't see a need for you, you and you to lie and for the three of you to not care about my feelings. I admit that I was goddamnit mad at you guys wen it first happened. Just couldn't believe that you, you and you would have the heart to backstab me. Lets just put it as A, B and C. 

 To A, You're one of them whom I'm not satisfied with. Blame it on the msg you sent me about assumptions, wtv shit. You've yet to wake up from your sister's lullaby, BIG GIRL ! What's the point exaggerating that you're already eighteen when your mind, your thinking is NOT EVEN eighteen ? You know, I've always been straight forward to you. & if you were to drop in my blog and see this post, read this carefully and THINK to yourself NOT share to others and letting them judge me ! I did this as I'm not at the least bother to text or give you a call anymore. It's not that I'm a coward who doesn't dare to speak up to you straight rather than wasting my time typing all this out. But WHY should I ? Why should I be bother to contact a person who doesn't appreciate me yet take me for granted at times. Expressing what I feel, felt or am feeling now HERE is much more relieving. Reminisced those times-I always did and tried my best to be there for you, cheer you up, not disappoint you, etc. But what have you done for me ? All this while, I didn't expect anything from you. Wtv I did was just to make and see you happy. But afterall, it seems like I'm dumb and just a tissue to you. Being a tissue to sumone has nver been a liking. You'll use me wen you need me. You'll dump me wen you don't need me or after you used me. SighSighSigh. Nvmind. I've always put this qoute as a priniciple to my patience.

" Do what you want others to do onto you. "

To B, you're another stupid party. Actually, you're not at fault but your actions put you into trouble. I've got nth much to say to you. You're close to A. You'll get back to A if there's anything, almost all time. Both of you have the same kind of thinking. I'm tired and sick. No matter how the story goes or turns, it would still get back to you and her. & please, this has got nth to do with jealousy or anything. Till now, you'd see that I don't talk to you like how we used to. Eventhough what happened are already bygones, this soft heart is still not ment. It may seem like a minor incident but the impact to me is oh so deep. No point apologising to me thousands, millions times, asking me why am I (still) mad at you, what did you do, etc. I'm not interested to know or say anymore. & I realised that nowadays it's not only I don't really entertain you but I've been rude to you too. Apologise for that. Still, it's kind of useless coz I'll still repeat. Herm. Understand me coz I'm still upset with you over uncertain matters. I'm confuse.

To C, sth that i can't denie, I was disappointed with you too. You lied ! Eventhough lying is normal but this time round your lie to me was a deep one. By just saying that you're going out with your mom when actually you're not and after that I found things out, you're already in deep trouble. You knew it but smart of you to take actions. You talked things out with me before it was too late. Your "sorrys" didn't worked in the first place but you didn't give up. You went on pleasing my heart. The chemistry between me and you, the bonds we had were quite strong. I love you.

ABC were the cause to those rolled down tears. Gladly, there are people who were there for me, comforting me. Beloved Echarles, Syidah and Khai. Thanks. You guys cheered me up(:
Last but not least, to ABC, I can always forgive but never forget.

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